Goals for the month of Feb:
1. The kids get absolutely no screen time (either peripheral through my use of the computer, or their direct watching of shows.)
2. I find other ways, healthier ways of escapism. No FB and TV to use as a distraction.
I am allowing myself email and the occasional blog post. I quite frankly don't have time for anything else, but I was always making time for TV and FB.
Anyways, we shall see how it goes. It was easy at first, lots to do, but the evenings are increasingly difficult. I would like to relax and watch a TV show, veg out. Instead I am reading, going to bed earlier some nights, and talking with Nick on the nights he isn't working (which are few and far between). I am finding that my desire for avoidance is primarily in any issues related to talking with Nick about finances or future. I would just rather not. So this should be good for me, force me up against the things that are currently causing the most discomfort. I was expecting this, I anticipated it and I wanted the uncomfortable
What hasn't happened that I was expecting was the release of time. I thought that I would have more time for homeschooling and homeschool planning, housework, life planning, cooking, etc... I am finding this is not the case! At least not yet, and I am surprised. I assumed that giving up the time from using FB and TV would free me up to do other things, but since I used those things mostly in the evening after kids went to bed I am finding mostly that I am just plain too tired to do anything else after they go to bed, still!
My preconceived notions came from past media free experiments. I went 9 mo. without FB (which is so silly isn't it? that this is an accomplishment). And I have done truly media free months (usually once a year), so perhaps that was the difference. Maybe what I am doing right now, by typing this, is the next piece that is not giving me my time back. If I had the ability to give the email up that would equal a failing or resigning of my current obligations and roles for work, so it isn't possible but I am trying to minimize it. And I absolutely will not check email when the kids are awake or around.
Well...this is not the end or even the middle, perhaps I will find a bit more time yet.
In the meantime, this is my current entertainment:
Thursday, January 31, 2013
So I have had an idea for a photo project for a long time, can I pull it off? The Samsung is on it's last leg and I would not describe it as a photographers camera. I do not have formal training, and I know that can be a sore spot with professional photographers, but I feel like I have natural talent and I don't need the most current technology to agree with me. I have had photographs published in newspapers and in an art show, but what I want to do has little to do with recognition and more to do with my passion. I have a photograph of Frida Kahlo in my kitchen. I adore her, but this photograph is brilliant, it is her. It expresses her inner most self, her struggles and her pain and sorrow. I feel so much looking at it and it inspires me. I am using that photograph as inspiration in pursuing my project and I am hoping that my art will be received in the world with open arms. I am currently using myself and my children as models/subjects but hopefully I will be able to use and find other women able and willing.
A small taste of what is coming.
I am so excited and inspired, when I am done I hope you are too!